Thursday, 27 November 2014

The Blogger I'm Not


I feel like I've been having a bit of a blog identity crisis lately.

A continuous circle of 'what am I doing?' and 'I don't like where this is going.' I don't know why, but I feel a little bit disconnected, a little bit pushed for time and a whole lot confused. 

You see, I started this space during my Year Abroad, in a peaceful little village in Southern Spain. I posted whenever I wanted, about whatever I wanted (I don't recommend trying to find those posts, by the way) and  I enjoyed the sense of freedom & spontaneity that came with it. Fast forward numerous name changes, a growing readership & generally taking blogging as a more professional outlet, and of course, things have changed - a lot. 

Everyone has upped their game in the blogosphere. Editorial look-books and magazine worthy beauty posts have become the norm. I'm not complaining; things change and you either have to move with the times or fail trying to fight against it. I'm just not sure if I lost a piece of myself and who I really am, what I love to post about and what I truly want to share, along the way. 

I found myself setting up unwritten rules on how often I should post; piled on unnecessary pressure for something that is, essentially, a hobby; I started writing for stats, rather than what I enjoy - and I don't know if you can tell, but my heart just isn't in it 100% anymore. If anything, pushing myself to post 3 - 4 times a week has resulted in quantity over quality and I've reached for the easier option (beauty) over things that will take more time (illustration) - which is not what I want this space to be. 

That doesn't mean to say I'm going to stop certain aspects of what I post - perhaps just a slight change of direction.
 
Because, I'm not the blogger who will always have the newest, latest product or be invited to the biggest pr events (nor will I probably ever be). I can't cook like a chef or bake like a GBBO contestant, nor have the patience to plate it in a pinterest-way. I don't have a unique look or a crazy, interesting lifestyle. I'm not immensely knowledgable in one particular area. I can't apply my make-up like a pro or do my hair in any sort of style, and lets not even talk about manicures... but that's just me. 

I applaud those that have built their empires on exactly that, that's what people are good at and/or interested in, plus that's what a lot of people want to see. I love reading them, too, but when it comes to recreating or putting my own spin on it - something just isn't clicking at the moment. 

I'm not saying I'll never post about beauty or haircare, etc, again; lets face it, I'll always love make-up, but maybe I'll leave the majority of it to the pros; just sharing a couple of my favourites with you  here & there and I'll stick to more personal posts in the meantime. 

Perhaps nothing much will change - perhaps I'm (definitely) just rambling, but a little self-reflection never hurt anyone... 

Have you ever had a blog identity crisis?
xo

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  1. Creo que todas hemos pasado por una sensación de "crisis" en algún momento; no hay reglas escritas sobre ser o no blogger. A mi me gusta tu blog, tu lifestyle, tus cosas, y todo lo que te apetezca compartir con nosotras. Eso es ser blogger, querer compartir tus inquietudes sean cuales sean.
    Un besito!!

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    1. Muchas gracias Marta :) tienes razón. Me alegro mucho que te gusta lo que comparto aqui :) un besito!

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  2. This is such a refreshing post! I'm by no means a "good" or "professional" blogger (the complete opposite in fact) but I enjoy writing; it's often a release from daily life. But I feel all these pressures, I don't have many followers and my stats are non existent so I feel like a failure. I find it all such a shame as it completely sucks the enjoyment out of blogging, which can be such a personal thing. I always look forward to your posts, regardless of how many you post a week! X

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    1. Thanks so much Danielle :) really appreciate it (and you're definitely not a failure. I love all the bits & pieces you post) xx

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  3. I've read a couple of blogs for years, but when I started blogging myself I suddenly discovered the 'blogosphere' and had no idea how professional it all was in comparison with the blogs I'd been reading. At first I was amazed and sought out the most professional blogs to read and aspire to, but after a month or two I became bored by them. I read blogs to find out about other lives and to be inspired for my own, but a lot of what I was reading was completely unachievable. These days I love posts that are more realistic in my opinion, and personal. You have a beautiful blog and I think the changes you want to make are what will make me love it even more :)
    Jennifer x
    Http://www.ginevrella.blogspot.co.uk

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    1. I know exactly what you mean. And thank you so much, that's really kind xx

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  4. I had a blog crisis quite recently, I put myself under a lot of pressure to try and be perfect as there are so many amazing beauty blogs out there and I spent hours retaking photos and putting myself under pressure. After a long chat with my mum and her telling me to be always be myself then I will always be unique I decided to stop trying to be perfect and just to be myself. Hopefully people will still like my posts and it makes me feel a lot happier about my blog!

    Your blog is one of my absolute faves because you're such a lovely person, you're so talented and I always love your blog posts, no matter what they're about! x

    SophiesMakeupBlog

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    1. I really love your blog Sophie! I'm glad you're taking it easier on yourself though. It's so easy to get caught up, isn't it? I've enjoyed having a little breather. Hopefully this means lots of ideas are on their way too :) xx

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  5. I totally know how you feel. I've gotten to the point with my own blog where I honestly don't know if I'm putting the effort in, and I'm not 100% sure what direction I want to go in with it.

    In saying that, though, I'm pretty glad my blog is still very much a hobby rather than something I rely on for income, as I think that if it was, "bloggers block" would have much more of a significant impact.

    Either way Sam I love your posts no matter the content, and if you need to reduce the amount of times you post to feel like your heart is in it again, do it.

    Amy xx

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    1. It's hard, isn't it? Obviously every post has a certain amount of effort required, no matter what you post but then it's easy to get so consumed in 'how much' effort is really necessary and feeling inadequate about it all. Thank you so much though. I love reading your posts, I hope you do keep posting :) xx

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  6. Yes! I am currently having a blog identity crisis, too. I also set up my blog as a hobby, and somehow it has become all about beauty even though that's not what I originally wanted it to be. I'm not quite sure how it happened... But with the beauty blog came the pressure to do "The Edit" this and perfect lighting that, to care about stats over content, and feeling like I needed to be always writing about the latest releases and trends.

    And then I realised that I don't even enjoy reading those shiny, polished blogs and I don't really mind how many people read my blog as long as they connect with it - and I connect better with those blogs which reveal more about the person. So I'm recalibrating my blog as of now, and it won't be so much beauty either. I look forward to the journey, and I look forward to reading yours!

    -Rachel || A Nesting Nomad

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  7. I think it's tough not to fall into trap of "doing what everyone else does." It's hard not to enter the invisible blogging race, trying to keep up with what everyone else is doing because that's what everyone else is judging your success by.

    But it's important to remember this is YOUR blog and you do things the way you want to. Remember why you started and what your goals are, stick to it and keep going :))

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  8. I started writing at the beginning of this year and write with a focus on wellbeing and personal posts. As I started reading many more blogs I kept finding the "why I don't like your blog", "5 posts you should be writing" and "how to be a successful bloggers". I don't have a massive readership but I try to see it in the way that it is great that these like minded people have found me. I'm never going to be editorial, glamorous and have the crazy lifestyle that makes great lifestyle post. But I can keep being authentic in what I write and share.

    Yes, I have little ripples of self doubt but I always come back to writing about what I feel like. Remember this is your little space in to big world wide web, you can do what you want!

    I love your blog and am very excited to read more personal posts! x

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  9. I'm sorry you feel like you've stopped being you - but I think it's great that you've realised this before you became completely miserable with the whole situation. I've had my blog for nearly a year now and it's gone through many transformations on post style - it's very hard to find a balance between what I want to write and what people are interested in. In my case I've decided to go for simply my own preference, which probably means I'll never be as big as some of the other bloggers out there but does at least mean I find it easy to write content and look forward to doing so!

    Nicola // pink-confetti.co.uk

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  10. I always go through stages of feeling like this, in the 6 or so years I've been blogging I've probably gone through 10 or so different blogs, none lasted very long as I ahd a blogging identity crisis as you put it, freaked out and gave up. This time round I'm working at my own pace and I enjoy what I blog about (to be fair I do blog abouit a bit of everything though but thats cool with me because thats whats going on in my head) I do get stressed when I get behind with projects and have to ut deadlines back with copmpanies I'm working with but I've had more success in these short few month working on a blog I love thatn I ahd done in the past.

    Work at your own pace and only on what you want xxxx
    Charlotte xxx

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  11. Ah Sam, this post is so, so relatable. I just came back from a months-long blogging hiatus because of exactly those unwritten rules and unnecessary pressure you mention. I remember when I first found your blog and why I fell in love with it, and it definitely wasn't because of lookbooks or reviews of the latest products. It was because your blog was sincere, genuine, and a reflection of an awesome girl who loves beauty, but also had other really cool interests as well. The first post I ever read on your blog was about Herbert and that was way more fun and memorable of a post to read than any lipstick review... and I sure do love lipstick. ;) My point is that I think the "blogger you're not" is actually why I love Tiny Paint Pot and why it is one of my favorites.
    XO Camey

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  12. Truth be told, I prefer reading something ''raw'' and not so ''perfect'' than ''editorial'' posts any day because I can actually relate to those.
    As you said, this is essentially a hobby (at least for me) and I recently started to feel like everyone has been taking this blogging thing way too seriously and all they want is to make money out of it and paint some perfect picture that doesn't actually exists.

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  13. I absolutely love this post and know exactly where you are coming from.
    You may NOT be a blogger who does the above mentioned in your post but you ARE a fantastic blogger and a wonderful person to read. Don't sweat it lovely. Post what you want and the true ones will always stick around! x

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  14. I definitely know how you feel and went through the same thing this year! Beauty and fashion are definitely more popular than written posts (which is my first love) so I started to neglect just writing about thoughts and opinions for beauty and fashion. Now I've decided to get rid of the beauty element, keep the fashion side of things as I still enjoyed it and up the game in terms of lifestyle and written posts and it's one of the best decisions I've made. It means that I'M happier and actually look forward to thinking up blog posts and ideas. Self-reflection is great and so is asking yourself what direction you want your blog to take and if you are heading in that direction right now. Good luck with it!
    Saadiya x

    www.thatgirlsaadiya.blogspot.com

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  15. I think it's great that you can admit this and before it's too late. I really think the best thing is to put the time you want to put into it, and whenever you're not having fun stop, because a hobby should never feel like a job.

    nueyork.blogspot.com

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  16. WHO CARES? Do what you want. Do what makes you happy. You may not those splashy blog post, Eva Chen may never invite you to anything. Who cares? Its a hobby-like diamond from the players' club said make that money dont let it make you. You are suppose to read it with hobby is placed where money is. Do you boo. Its fine. There will be someone like me who wants to read something different.

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  17. I feel like this a lot! Constantly worrying if my blog is "good enough" or if it's going where I want it to be going. But in the end, it should be all about you. What you want to write about. Love this post, and love your blog that I've just stumbled across! Count me as a new follower :)

    Georgina x | miss petite

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  18. I know how you feel. I look at blog layouts and photography and suddenly everyone's got really good! I also feel like I enjoyed it a lot more at the beginning but I think it's because everything was so new and I didn't really have an audience to impress. The whole blogosphere has grown and evolved so much recently. I'd say just post when you feel inspired, schedules are good but I think when they get too precise it turns everything into a chore, and blogging should be fun! I know this is all easier said that done though. For a while I had a bit of a 'blogger's block' so I just concentrated on other things and suddenly all these ideas came to me.

    Btw, I really enjoy reading your posts and it never occurred to me that you felt disconnected. Just keep going, but do it for yourself! :) Hugs!

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  19. Hey hey lovely. Just wanted to say I think all writers feel this way at some point or another. But I much rather reading something interestingly written than these magazine style blogs which to be quite frank bore me to tears. Oh great you have a new handbag *slow clap* now however if you actually have something entertaining to say whilst you're showing the new handbag then props. You know? Some of my favourite blogs are just words, or super rough and ready. The most important thing is to just keep posting and making an effort to post, eventually you'll get a rhythm back and love writing stuff. I agree that in the beauty sphere, everyone is just so professional and to be quite frank so many people are posting about it that there is a bit of white noise. I'd much rather hear about the evening out you went on and casually mentioning the products rather than every post being about a product. I also love your watercolours and amazing artistic skills so any posts you had about that would be amazing, from just 'in the studio' shots to talking about brushes and inspiration and anything like that. Keep going pls :D
    Amelia xxx

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  20. Hallelujah! You said what I've been feeling lately. Suddenly the blogosphere went from being a fun and friendly place to being a business opportunity. Suddenly we went from making friends to competing for followers. It just sucks the fun out of it, and I find my best posts for me to read back on are where I'm being completely honest and myself.

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  21. This is exactly what I've been experiencing lately too. I wanted to be as successful as some of the bloggers I love but felt like I had to force myself to write and tried to make a schedule of when I should post and it was taking the fun out of it.

    I decided earlier this week that I am going to just post whatever I want to even if its probably boring to some. Its my space and I am going to post what I want and thats exactly what you should do hon. Its your space use it how you want.
    Xx

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  22. Always!! I have changed my blog's name once because I didn't feel comfortable with the way it was going. It didn't have my essence.

    Now I'm fine with it, but sometimes, I have that blog identity crisis.

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  23. I'm sorry you're feeling disconnected. I hope you find what you're looking for and maybe decide which direction you want your blog to go. xx

    Aissa // tea in january

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  24. I've definitely been struggling with this for a while now! I'm finally starting to figure things out and just posting the things that I'm excited about.

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  25. I've been feeling incredibly similarly recently! I fell into the trap of thinking I should do what everyone else was doing and it wasn't a happy place. It's nice figuring out which direction you'd like to go in, and it certainly sounds like you have something you'd like to aim towards and that's wonderful! I adore your space here and I'll always stop by to marvel at your latest incredible illustrations or your wonderful words <3 x

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  26. This post is so relatable, I don't how or when I find that have put so much pressure on myself to blog a certain way and it has taken the joy out of it. I have found just taking a breaking from the blogging world great from when I am feeling this.
    Zeynab x
    The Beautifully Disastrous

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  27. i can completely relate, ive thought about packing it in a few times but have always drifted back, as it turns out i just love blogging

    dontcrycowboy

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  28. It felt really nice reading such an open and honest blog post. I guess most of us put this pressure on ourselves, at least I'm also guilty of that and also of comparing myself to people who are way more successful than me, which is also not helping.
    I hope the blog identity crisis will soon end for you ! x

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  29. I've been thinking about this topic a lot recently and firstly, I want to thank you for being so honest. I think it's something that can be missing in the blogging world at the moment.

    I've been panicking about my blog recently. I truly believe in the content I publish and the ideas I've got to come are the best I've ever had - but I feel guilty sometimes for wishing I had more followers to read it. So like you, I've decided to leave a lot of things to the pros and let them go about it in their own way. I'll just carry on posting content that I love.

    Don't worry about rambling - that's what usually needs to happen before you choose to have a change of direction with your blog. I hope you find it and I look forward to reading your posts in the future :)

    Holly xx

    http://abranchofholly.blogspot.co.uk/

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  30. I've been meaning to comment on this post for way too long. I totally identify with your feelings. Wanting to make it big and keep your audience coming back, but wanting to keep the fun, passion and raison d'etre for blogging in the first place. It's a difficult path to navigate.

    Thank you for sharing. As you can see, a lot of people agree with you.

    Sash x

    thelifewardrobe.co.uk

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