Anyone that knows me has probably heard me say at some point "I wish I was really good at just one thing" - as that's all I've ever wanted.
I'm a Gemini. A picky, choosy, scattery air head that has issues with sticking at things 'til the end - especially when the going gets tough. I'm the first one already looking for the exit.
And when I say I have a multitude of interests, that is no lie, the list is about as long as I am. From languages, painting, photography, drawing, music, graphics - even coding & html, saxophone playing, running, pilate-ing... It's mixed. And interesting. But I'm not actually great at any of them.
Contrary to popular belief, (I kid, I kid) I am actually just a bit of a 'Plain Jane.'
And I'm not even ashamed to admit it.
I like no make-up days, where I sit in big jumpers and even bigger sweatpants, with wet hair while it dries in crazy ways (ie. today). I like working to the best of my ability but I'm never upset when the results aren't brilliant - because I always know I've done what I can and that's all I can ever do. I like eating nutella from the tub - followed by even more chocolate if I'm having a bad day and not panicking about gaining lbs afterwards. I like having very select close friends - I may 'know' many but I trust few, and that's okay with me. I like walking around in underwear when no-one else is in the house, possibly singing to something on the tv/tripping over my own feet - one of the two, both at the same time if I'm lucky.
I like living an average life.
To some, that may be a weird thing to say. And I probably wouldn't want to encourage it - but I also wouldn't want anyone to feel bad if they feel the same.
I plan on being good at something. I don't quite know what yet - perhaps it will be teaching, perhaps not. But I believe everyone has a path in life, and maybe I just haven't found mine yet.
If anything, it makes me appreciate my life just a little bit more - I'm aware of the options, and I'll probably try a lot of them, to see what fits best. I'll experience the good, the bad, the just plain wrong along the way, and that in itself is quite exciting.
I'm surrounded by such amazing, inspirational people on a daily basis and I love watching them grow & develop into fantastic super-beings (mainly runners, athletes, bloggers - whatever) but they're not me and as much as I admire talent, determination and drive that these people have to achieve their goals - it is just that, theirs.
So as from today, I'm going to embrace this strange collection of under developed 'talents' that I have and continue on in my eclectic ways, because it works for me. And I'm alright with that.
And the next time you wonder if anyone is doing anything as average as you are - remember there's always me, sat doing this.
With crazy big hair. X