Monday, 31 January 2011

Ai, qué rowdy.

so, this weekend I went to Madrid.
I met up with around 10 of my uni friends as we're all living in Spain at the moment, 
and where's better than the capital city?

we shopped, we ate, we drank - a lot, we visited monuments and partied in Pacha.
it was an amazing, tiring, drunk weekend.
and I absolutely loved it.


Wednesday, 26 January 2011

I came across some more photos from my journeys last weekend that I quite like.
I'm enjoying learning more & more about photography.



Everyone says love hurts but that is not true. Loneliness hurts. Rejection hurts. Losing someone hurts. Envy hurts. Everyone gets these things confused with love. But in reality love is the only thing in this world that covers up all pain and makes someone feel wonderful again.

Adele - One & Only.

If I've been on your mind,
You hang on every word I say,
Lose yourself in time,
At the mention of my name,
Will I ever know how it feels to hold you close,
And have you tell me whichever road I choose, you'll go?

I don't know why I'm scared,
'Cause I've been here before,
Every feeling, every word,
I've imagined it all,
You'll never know if you never try,
To forget your past and simply be mine,

I dare you to let me be your, your one and only
I promise I'm worth it,
To hold in your arms,
So come on and give me a chance,
To prove I am the one who can walk that mile,
Until the end starts,

I know it ain't easy giving up your heart,
I know it ain't easy giving up your heart,
Nobody's perfect.

Tuesday, 25 January 2011

Árbol de Almendro.

I went on a quick walk up the hill of Estepa today.
At the top, around this time the typical Andalucian tree 'almendro' is in bloom.
I managed to get a few shots that I liked .. But it was so cold & windy I couldn't stay for too long!

en flor.


Monday, 24 January 2011

Malaga, Sevilla, Estepa, Oh My.

So its the Monday after the weekend before. I feel like I spent my entire weekend, eating, drinking, eating, sleeping, drinking some more.. and a bit more.

My lovely best friend arrived in Spain Thursday night, I met her in Malaga where we stayed at Vincci Posada del Patio hotel and (for the few hours we were in there) it was amazing.

We had a night in Malaga, starting with eating noodles in a fancy little japanese restaurant, which were so good we went back the next day. We were greeted by the guy asking if 'we had slept?' .. I think thats always a bad sign of just how rough you look. We drank muchos mojitos, red wine, vodka andd .. whatever else we ended up getting our hands on.

We stumbled back to the hotel around 4am, where I proceeded to practically walk straight into the glass door because it is locked through the night ... I'm sure they'll enjoy watching that back on CCTV.

Woke at 9am, still tipsy, to get our already paid for breakfast.. Which was one of those things where you really want to eat everything and pile your plate up, then realise you may be sick all over it. But still, it soaked some of the alcohol up quite well. We checked out at 12pm and spent 5 hours wandering around Malaga. Including a horse & cart round around the city, visiting Malaga Cathedral, looking around the Picasso museum andd .. drinking some more vino.

Friday night we went back to Estepa. I think its the first place my friend has ever seen anywhere so small haha .. The weather was freeezzzingg, we we're still hungover and tired from 5 hours sleep and a bumpy coach ride, but we still went out for (more) drink & a tapa. But it didn't last too long ...

After the longest sleep that weekend, Saturday morning we headed to Seville! One of my favourite places. Unexpectedly it was baltic there too. The first time I have ever been to Seville and its been so cold, typical!
But, we still had a nice day. Visiting the Plaza de Espana is always great, we quickly ran past the Cathedral as it was so cold, headed to my favourite restaurant, ate tapas and amazing cakes until we could barely move, then headed to the shops!

We found a little cervecería and went for yet more wine, to keep warm, or thats the excuse. Then headed for the bus, yet again, back to Estepa.

All in all, it was a lovely weekend and great to see her.
Hopefully I will have more visitors soon :)

For a few more photos .. check here - x

Wednesday, 19 January 2011


1. These were amazing tasting.
2. The reason behind them made them even nicer.
Gracias Ana x


The things you do to keep warm in Estepa.
(Yes, it may be Spain - but it definitely is not all warm & sunshine-y in this flat; that often reminds me of living in a freezer. And yes, that is 3 blankets, a duvet, a big jumper & a hot cup of tea)

Trouble's Coming.

The good kind. My mejor amiga is coming to visit me in Estepa, tomorrow! Suuuper excited. 

We always get fairly too drunk (see above) and have fun no matter where we end up.

Malaga, Sevilla & Estepa haven't seen anything yet.

Sunday, 16 January 2011


So after my thoroughly depressing first post of being back in Estepa, I decided to have a bit of talk with myself. Enough is enough. It, whatever 'it' is, was affecting me too much to not at least try something, anything.

It got to the weekend, and as tempting as it was to sit an ponder over, and over, and over things (which never leads to anything good) I forced myself up & out of bed, looked up the word for turpentine / white spirit for my oils and decided to do what makes me happy again; paint. I went on a bit of a mission to try find it (but I did), taking my camera with me; something else I've found quite therapeutic - taking & editing photos, and tried to re-ignite my love for Spain.

I think this is one of my favourite photos I've taken so far, to me this is what Estepa is, the sunshine, the old people amazingly climbing this hill of a town, the white buildings, the benches, the peacefulness (apart from Mondays & Wednesdays when theres a bit of a rowdy market).. Everything.

Its a nice little spot there. 

And so, right now I'm feeling a little more content. I'd say theres a bit to go before I will feel settled again but this feeling is better, much better.

"The greater part of human pain is unnecessary. It is self-created as long as the unobserved mind runs your life." ~E Tolle


"How can someone so far away, feel so close? Close enough to touch, but not close enough to hold? They say that technology is killing the art of conversation, but I disagree, it’s bringing us closer together.

Every time my phone buzzes, and I see his name, I smile. I don’t know what it is, maybe it’s just knowing that someone out there understands it, understands me, and I feel totally safe in his company, even if it is merely virtual."


Thursday, 13 January 2011

And we're back.


I'm definitely happy to see everyone again, that is the first thing. I missed my Estepa amigos while I was at home.
But that could possibly be where the line of 'missing things,' ends.

I knew this first week back would be hard, so really it's no surprise to me that I feel this way (and probably not the best time to be writing a blog about such things! but, oh well.) 

I guess going from such a big city, being around people I love and being able to get wherever I needed easily, to a place that has 12,000 people, (if that) and a major lack of public transport is a weird one. I do like Estepa, just to clear that up, its never done me any harm, the locals are friendly enough and I love my friends here, but I get the feeling I don't belong / don't know what I'm doing here any more. I don't exactly want to feel like this, I think every day this week I've woken up on the verge of tears; not being dramatic, do you know how hard it is to try put make-up on while you're bawling? Difficult. Trust me I've tried many things to try help (even down to reading an Islamic book to try find some spiritual guidance on this... true facts.) but maybe in the end its something that will pass, as most things do anyway.

I'm still doing everything I would do if I didn't feel like this, still making plans to travel on weekends and go out, so I know I won't look back and think, "well that was a waste of time." of which I hope will help with this ridiculous feeling I've had since Sunday.

In the meantime, I'm just trying to not give up. As a rule I generally don't, and I'll see this year through to the end probably no matter what. I'm kind of annoying myself writing this as I don't want to see it as a chore, because that's not what this is about. Anyway, the workings of my mind!

I need to find my goals, and keep on working towards that.

While I figure that out, I've been playing with my camera. So ending things on a better note; (I'll stop whining, promise.)


Sunday, 2 January 2011

An NYE to remember .. If only I could.

This video shows every single bad photo of me you would ever like to see. From meal & fancy dress, to many mojitos and not remembering a thing. Happy New Year to you all ! x
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