WANTED - ONE RUNNING MOJO.
MISSING SINCE - SUMMER 2010
I'm not sure where it went but I've been looking for it for a while now. My running mojo - work out mojo - general 'go get 'em' attitude; has sneaked off, perhaps through the night, and I am left feeling ridiculously un-energetic and low.
It could be the fact its coming up to winter? It could be that going to the gym to struggle through a routine on my own, that then leaves me partially crippled the next day; has lost its appeal? It could be that I have plain & simply become lazy?
I have no idea, but it has been a week since I last went to the gym, and numerous weeks since I last ran.
So what am I doing?
Being hard on myself. The usual. I get into a little, pathetic state of sulking, while wanting to do things, yet hiding away and mainly avoiding revision (read: doing nothing) which then leads to self hate for not doing things when I can - and then the circle continues. But with all this time on my hands, one positive is that I can think of what will actually / hopefully work for me...
Doing it for myself.
The best motivation I ever have is myself. I'm not the type of person that works well in groups or competition like circumstances; I find myself quickly frustrated that I'm not doing 'as good' as someone else and soon enough give up.
I need to find my own personal goal or idea of health for me. I used to have it, I promise! I just don't know where it went!
I have a goal - The Berlin Half Marathon in April 2012. By January next year I will start another Hal Hidgon 12 week Half Marathon plan.
In the mean time, I want to 'work on my fitness' *hears some sort of bad Black Eyed Peas song start playing in the background* - I'm not talking shed pounds, become tiny. No, no. I'm happy knowing I could out cross train someone, or lift more weights. If lbs fall off in the mean time, then ok, but thats not what I want this to be about.
I have downloaded the "Get Running" app for iPhone/iPod - Ive heard lots of good things about it and it will talk me through 'couch to 5k' in 6 weeks.
Its difficult not to think - "Sam, you once ran 8 miles, why are you only aiming for 3?" - well with injuries and pains galore, I don't want this training to end as it did through Summer. Even though I am starting at bottom again, I really want to make this work & be as injury free as possible.
Slow and steady wins the race? Right?
I'm hoping so. Once I get into that app;
- I will go to a Park Run in Leeds *blog promise*
- I will stop judging myself by other peoples standards
- I will do this for myself and me only
- I will try my absolute best
- I will cut down/out alcohol & junk food until Christmas (what? 'tis the season to be jolly)
- I will not give in if I do not see immediate results
- And, I will blog the progress, good or bad.
If anyone, no matter where you are in the world, wants to help or to join in on this little 'feel healthy, feel happy' movement or just wants some encouragement, then let me know! Group work may not be my thing but putting myself out there & having support and supporting others is right up my street! Even if it is just via social networks / running on the same days / noting back how you feel, then leave a comment below :)
I will stick to this up until Christmas.